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$xhtml = array(
	'<{title}>' => 'Exhaustion',
	'takedown' => '2017-11-01',
	'<{body}>' => <<<END
<section id="drudgery">
	<h2>Drudgery</h2>
	<p>
		My professor wrote back to me.
		It seems their idea of anonymity was a lot less complex than what I was thinking they were asking of me.
		They told me to simply assure my participants that I wouldn&apos;t publish identifying information as part of my study.
		In other words, I know very well who answered what, but I simply don&apos;t tell anyone.
		I already wasn&apos;t planning to publish anyone&apos;s personally-identifying information, so this actually changes nothing.
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			Okay, so the anonymity Doctor Chambers was talking about was that I&apos;m to assure participants that I won&apos;t publish any personally-identifying information, such as your names and places of employment, not that I&apos;m to try to hide who you are from myself through some blind experiment means.
			It was never my intent to reveal such information, though I see that if I have you reply here in the forum, that&apos;d expose your identities not in my assignment submission, but to other classmates.
			If you want to respond privately, I can be reached at <a href="mailto:alex@y.st"><code>mailto:alex@y.st</code></a>.
			I have no intent to release any personal information I end up with, and will uphold your anonymity to the fullest.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
	<p>
		The student that said they&apos;d help me responded that maybe I actually <strong>*am*</strong> a robot and don&apos;t know it, which is why the site blocks me.
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			Maybe.
			It certainly would explain a few things.
		</p>
		<p>
			The site&apos;s still blocking me today.
			They probably have something misconfigured or something.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
	<p>
		Having not been able to get to sleep last night for unknown reasons, I wasn&apos;t up for getting much coursework done.
		Ugh.
		I was counting on today being a productive day.
		I tried to read my maths textbook, but I couldn&apos;t figure out what was going on in it.
		In my exhausted state, it was just too complex.
	</p>
	<p>
		Someone in the maths discussion was complaining that I hadn&apos;t considered the possibility of continually-compounded interest in my initial post on the first day of the school week.
		My reply:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			Right, but I hadn&apos;t yet read the textbook material for the week on the first day, when I made my initial post.
			I don&apos;t usually have time to get through all the material for both my courses on the first day of the week.
			I frequently make my initial posts based on my understanding of the topic before starting with the material, then I go back later in the week when I have time in order to enhance my understanding.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
	<p>
		My discussion post for the day:
	</p>
	<blockquote>
		<p>
			It looks like you really did your homework!
			Figuring out exactly when the lower running total becomes the higher running total like you did could come in handy if you&apos;re not quite sure if you&apos;ll be able to leave the money in your account for the full twenty years.
			If you can figure out how long you&apos;ll need to last before the paths cross, you may find the higher principle and lower interest will be better for your situation if the intersection comes later than you estimate you can hold out.
		</p>
	</blockquote>
</section>
<section id="drawing">
	<h2>Lucky number drawing</h2>
	<p>
		This week&apos;s lucky ending digit is nine.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="dreams">
	<p>
		I couldn&apos;t get to sleep last night, so I was really tired today.
		Later in the day, I tried to sleep, but couldn&apos;t.
		I drifted into a state of almost dreaming, though I was still actually awake.
		I guess it was sort of like a vivid halusination induced by exahstion, or maybe it was just my imagination, as I lay awake with my eyes closed.
	</p>
	<p>
		I could see the &quot;dream&quot;, but I couldn&apos;t feel it; I still felt my bed.
		I giggled a bit as I &quot;dreamed&quot; about things such as using a headset like the one from work to try to &quot;haunt&quot; someone from a distance and make them think I was a ghost.
		It didn&apos;t work and they quickly found me.
	</p>
	<p>
		I also &quot;dreamed&quot; of jokingly sugesting we &quot;bob for onions&quot; (except the &quot;onions&quot; were actually garlic; I had the right plant, but the wrong word for it) instead of apples for a harvest festival party.
		I claimed the reason was because of vampires, so a couple actual vampires said that the vampires are already among us.
		I didn&apos;t &quot;know&quot; they were vampires, as I didn&apos;t &quot;believe&quot; in vampires, but I claimed bobbing for &quot;onions&quot; would let us separate the vampires from the humans because only a vampire would refuse to bob for &quot;onions&quot;, though I assumed that there were no vampires and that <strong>*everyone*</strong> would refuse to bob for &quot;onions&quot;.
	</p>
	<p>
		I made myself get up for a bit to write about these &quot;dreams&quot;, but after that, I couldn&apos;t get back to that dreamlike state.
		It was frustrating because I had at least been getting a little rest in that state, but now I wasn&apos;t getting rest at all.
	</p>
</section>
<section id="Minetest">
	<h2>Minetest</h2>
	<img src="/y.st./source/y.st./static/img/CC_BY-SA_3.0/minetest.net./weblog/2018/03/06.png" alt="Looking up from the shaft" class="framed-centred-image" width="800" height="600"/>
	<p>
		Without enough brain capacity to focus on coursework, and having eventually given up on getting any rest, I instead mindlessly dug away at the stone obstructing my tunnel shaft. I finished the job, and built up most of the rails and rail supports around the edges.
		There wasn&apos;t enough mese for all the rails though, so I had to start on the horizontal shaft to acquire more.
		I guess I&apos;ll finish up the rails tomorrow.
	</p>
</section>
END
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